I sat there waiting she was running
late which was so unlike her. A few minutes later my phone rings and yes it was
my good old friend Marcela. She told me she needed 10 more minutes then she
will join me. Since I had no other appointments, I waited. It didn’t take 10
minutes and she was there! We were all excited to see each other after such a long
time. We grew up together in our teens; I remember so well how wonderful we
told the stories of how we wanted a Cinderella dress for our wedding. The
memories trickled in one by one. Then we fast forward…. And now we are both
married to the men we love so much.
Then she poses and looks right into
my eyes, takes a big breath, with tears in her eyes and a smile on her face she
asked, “How could the man I love so much hurt me to the last of my bones?” I immediately
knew she was in trouble. I remember thinking
in my head only a woman would cry and smile at the same time. Only a woman
would cry for what belongs to her, only a woman smiles when she is hurting.
I held her hand and asked if she
wanted to talk she slowly nodded her head as she picked her handkerchief from
her bag. She then tries to compose her self and said: “No woman in this entire
world knows what it takes to love my husband, no woman knows the cost of loving
my husband and if they did, they would not be proud to be the other woman in
his life. The good memories we had when we first met, the jokes and the walks
we always took, the way we went to the park to pray for our lives and that of
our children, the promises we gave to each other, the mood swings of carrying
the child of the man you truely love, the labor pains of pushing our children
reminding yourself you have to make it for your husband’s and your child’s sake,
the lonely nights at home when he never came back, never called and if he did
was to acusse me of a wrong I did in the past. It hurts and it hurts to the
last of my bones”
At this point, I was trying so hard
not to cry because this statement broke my heart. I knew in my heart that
marriage is beautiful but how do I tell a woman who is hurting so badly to hold
on things will get better? She continued “I want to stay because I love my husband;
I want to keep my vows to him, and God hates divorce. I might have done many
wrong things but I have never cheated on him.” Still crying, I held her hand
and said “Let us pray” and so we prayed in agreement and believed God for His
intervention. I didn’t know where to
start from but I picked up a line anyway “How long has this been going on?” She
paused for a minute wiped her tears and said “How long this has been going on
does not matter what matters the most is that I have chosen to love my husband
over and over again and I want you to keep me accountable on this one. I want
to love him with no expectations I want to learn to forgive him everyday of my
life I want my marriage to be what God wants it to be even though my husband
wants out, I will trust in God for a better ending because the end of a matter
is better than the beginning.” She looks
at me and smiles again though still crying. I smile back at her and all I could
see was the love she had for her husband. She challenged me, even in her distress;
she picked out the positive things.
As I sat there, I started to get
angry. I remember asking “God where are you in all this?” and a gentle spirit
calmed me down I heard this words very clearly and even spoke them aloud to Marcela
“Even in your pain I am with you. I am God and that will never change”
In that moment of anger, I felt God
speak to my heart, “Are you really going to be angry yet I have said My grace
is sufficient in all things? Where is the grace in that?”
By the time we finished our conversation,
my anger had left and I felt appreciative for God’s revelation in me. I knew
all things work together for good for those that love the Lord.
As we’ve interacted with many couples
over the past years, there is one missing ingredient that causes a marriage to
struggle: grace.
When a marriage is missing grace the
entire disposition of the relationship changes.
Little things cause big fights.
Motives are constantly questioned.
Tempers are short and often lost.
Assumptions are always made.
Conclusions are frequently jumped
to.
Husbands and wives consistently lead
with anger.
The past is always brought up.
The score is always kept.
When grace is missing from a
marriage, three words dominate that relationship: You. Owe. Me.
A lack of grace will cause a husband
to be furious with his wife for telling him her fears. A lack of grace will
cause a wife to notice all that her husband does wrong and not see all he does
right.
It is easy to give grace to others
and refuse to give it to your spouse. You can’t show grace to someone you are
trying to make pay.
If you want to see change and
improvement in your marriage, take a few minutes this week to think about how
messed up and imperfect you are…and how God loves you anyway. That is grace.
So many couples try to correct their
behavior or change their communication patterns, but without grace those
changes are temporary and exhausting. Grace is the starting point from which
all change is made.
When you connect your heart to the
grace of God, it becomes much easier to dispense that grace to the person you
love the most.
Today I want to let you know alls
well that ends well and all our marriages have and will work in Jesus name. I
want you to help us in pray for marriages. Make sure to leave a comment on our
blog as we encourage Marcela and many other couples that are struggling in
their relationships. Every positive comment counts because you never now if it
will save a life. Don’t forget
MARRIAGE IS BEAUTIFUL AND MINE MUST
WORK!
Love you all! Brenda